Friday, December 7, 2007

Thats life..

What were you going on about two days ago? So what changes are you going to make to yourself? I asked myself those questions on Monday. Truth is, i didnt know. Though what i did know; i was very disappointed. The promotion list came out Monday evening. With 22 months of experience, i was actually in a good shape to get promoted, well so i thought. Looking at the sparsely populated list, i spotted a friend that had join me on the same day, got seconded to another department and never looked back. He got promoted while i looking like an arsehole for staying behind, stayed behind.

Now i cant just blame the whole world and not myself. Yes, i am angry at myself for probably not trying any harder, but given the circumstances of my team, that was really the best they pushed me. Another friend, i saw her get promoted twice in the span of my stay.

Only one word, sick and why in the world did i not get promoted? It is a sign that there is better things in life for me?

Since Monday, i toyed with the idea of resigning. The day that i can throw the letter and say "Good Bye, i dont want to do any of the shit i am doing now". I finally brushed up my resume to reflect myself and not the young innocent 20 year old i was two years ago.

I guess i did learn alot about myself in the 22 months. I knew that talking is my forte and given the chance to do a presentation and i probably could be on par with others. Then again, it shows i ooze confidence, well maybe too much i guess.

I am frantically trying to put in my resume into any Tom, Dick and Harry vacancy at the moment. Plans to do photography and writing has come to mind. Maybe teaching people how to public speak as well, who knows? Fingers crossd, i have dated the letter for Monday.

Maybe i am a spoilt brat for losing a battle so easily or i am a sore loser. Though i still think its a battle i dont want to fight no longer. I dont want to go in to my boss room and ask why because the milk is spoilt and there should be no way of turning it around. All i know is, i think i had enough of my current job.

Sigh, how i wish i could do this everyday..make this..

17 comments:

Kenny Mah said...

Don't really know what to say to you, Joe. Whether or not your decision is drastic or not only you will truly know, but I understand your frustrations. It does suck when your efforts aren't being rewarded or appreciated at least.

There's no harm in delaying the decision awhile more though, if only to give yourself more time to think about it. In the meantime, I'm one of the Toms, Dicks and Harrys you can send your résumé to. Yeah, I'm one of them nefarious headhunters. Lol.

Whatever your decision, bro, I'm wishing you all the best! :)

Jun said...

*hugs*

KJ said...

Ok to be sad and frustrated!!! I had the same experience 10-12 years ago. The first 18 to 24mths of my career didn't go smooth at all..in fact, I was just barely survived in those lousy small/mid size firms with pay of MYR650 p/mth. Without help from your mum and dad, I could have pack my stuffs and back to Ipoh!!!

leo said...

hey mr, you're just starting out in yr career.. good things come to people who wait..

but i am going to contradict myself now, by saying the only way up is to jump..

=) no one can help you make this decision.. think hard...

zewt said...

i know how it feels bro...

there were times where i feel victorious becos i was promoted ahead or others and then even amongst the promotees... we compared our salary to see who has got the most increment. the thing is, it will never stop.

anyway, i have to say being in indirect tax does not do any good to anyone's career... you should talk to your manager now to see what you can do in the next 6 months. it's not the time to resign yet... you should get yourself promoted to get the last 22 months of work worthy.

mh said...

Yup..try to talk to you manager/mentor (not sure if the have it in Tax, we have our personal mentor in assurance). Discuss what you want to do in the next 12 mths. Since your forte is talking, maybe you'll like to try transfer pricing where it involve a lot of presentation to clients? Try to explore the opportunities available within the firm...after all it is a Great Place to Work (I'm referring only to the people you work with ya!).

ai wei said...

cheer up cheer up!

ling239 said...

hmm... well since u had made up your mind, just go ahead ~ never try never know... All the best, always ~ ^_^

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

thanks guys for all the advice and hugs..i think i know what i should do..fingers crossed..

Precious Pea said...

Sorry to hear that you didn't make it to the list. But have you even question yourself or your management why you are not promoted? Are they not happy with your work? Or your competitors are better? Sometimes, thing doesn't go according to our way, but don't quit out of disappointment. Think properly first ok?

Big Boys Oven said...

patient is the best remedy. Don't get disappointed that easily!

Jackson said...

brother, we r here to support you!

MamaBoK said...

In any job.. there comes a point.. where it becomes monotonous .. plus as human. .we are easily complacent.. when we are comfortable. Donch rush out and resign.. but pick a good time .. and day.. to chat with your boss. Find out more .. why you are pass over for a promotion. That i think is a more mature thing to do.

Lyrical Lemongrass said...

You need to talk to your supervisor. Better than making assumptions which can eat at ya. :-P For all you know, there could be a silver lining somewhere. Take care, man.

fatboybakes said...

yar, nipples, cheer up...you're only an innocent 22 la, still got long long road ahead. one day you'll look back at this and laugh, i am almost sure i can PROMISE you that. but yes, being stuck in rut at work is a horrible thing, so do explore other options. i also couldnt wait for the day when i could throw in my resignation to my painful boss also, once upon a time....

wmw said...

Well, as they say, change what you can change...accept what you can't.

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

well i guess i got the "truth" guys..well 6 months..is it really worth the wait??