Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Life is about choices..


Life is about choices. The picture says it all, whether you want something in red, green, purple or yellow, long or short and stubby, it is all about choices. The fact that i chose to think the way i did last week, was because i had a choice; either suck it up or decide that enough was enough.

Though i needed an answer. I came back from lunch unexpectedly, saw the "answer" in his room. I prepped myself, compiled the documents that i needed him to sign and went inside to get the "answer". All that "brave talk" went away, as i sat down. The throat was dry and my troublesome teary eye was up to no good. When in fact i had prepared virtually an essay in my mind, all i could say was "Can we talk? About you know.."

I find it ironic that i think that this matter is such a big deal but others think otherwise. It is clear it is about choices; to dip your food in sauce or eat it as it is. He said "Sure, about taking leave again?" Either he was clearly trying to avoid the matter or just being sarcastic, no one knows. His face had a worn weathered face that has several layers that you have to see through in order to know how he really feels.

"Er, no. Its about the recent promotion list. Was I even considered for promotion?" At this point, how i wish i was like the chicken above, wanting to be wrapped back up again to feel warm and protected. I was expecting a 101 lame answers or to make the matter worse, how i truly fared in working for the last 22 months.

Came the answer.

Like a large plate of fried brinjal, all too hot to put in your mouth and the lame pieces of foo chuk, the answer was as simple as cooking the plate above.

You see, this promotion round is really for "exceptional" people. I have no qualms with your progress so far eventhough you are short by 2 months for promotion. The feedback you got from your managers are yes impressive but still short for promotion this round. If you see, not a lot of people got the promotion. Dont worry, you would have no problems the next round, You will get there, I will help you get there.

Now you see, it would have worked if i was a naive young graduate. In fact i would have been only so glad that such a senior staff could say such words. I would be happy with a bowl of oily soup and fish paste passing off for fish balls. Though as much as i would like to be impressed and happy, i wasnt.

I knew too much. I knew orders could be made to managers to "jack up" the scores. I knew off way too many people that had got promoted that "way". What was i to say? Tell him that he could have made a difference. What really hurt the most was the fact my friend took the gamble and moved to another department, and got promoted this round. I told the partner that and he said he didnt know. Clearly a lie i reckon.

Comes the conclusion, 6 months is a long time but is it worth working for people that says that you are a worthy staff and then only getting the promotion i seek? Or should i say forget it and leave this vicious environment? Fingers crossed, offers better come soon.

*Yong Tau Foo was eaten somewhere deep down in Puchong. Stuffed with fish paste on the spot and fried, it is available for RM 1 a piece. No address and details as i was whizzed away by my Dad. Ratings: 2.5 out of 5 stars for being too crude and just not delicate enough*

23 comments:

SuLee said...

u know my family is one of the hakka YTF vendors in Klang.

Started from my grandpa, my mom, two aunts...i think nobody is doing it anymore....

MeiyeN said...

oh man... you have a very kind and nice senior, obviously! never mind bout da promotion... you are still very young... way to go, buddy! :)

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

su lee: aiyoh really ar? if not i can go try out keke..

meiyen: well whether those words r true or not, we will never know..by the way the senior is the "partner" of the firm..

Nic (KHKL) said...

firstly, the YTF looked quite ordinary lar. secondly, to me, promotions shd b performance based. but that's not how the real world sees it. at 22, no matter what decision u make, i think it'll be a precious experience. best of luck, dude!

beachlover said...

Joe...be patience..maybe your turn will come up soon and much better next time..you're still young,just take this as an experience.I was in your shoes b4,same age as you now,and at that time I just too hurt and quit my job.I know I work so damn hard and suddendly the management hire a new candidate and I was left behind.After a month working the new person quit,can't handle the job,the management promote me to take over the spot.I refused to be transfer and get promoted after all.But the management give me no choice,then I have to quit or promoted.Why I should be second choice??so I quit..Anyway,that was yesteryears...I gained and I lost somewhere but never regret..btw....it open my eyes to see real people..back to your YTF photoa...damn!! you make me wanna a bowl now especially the stuff red pepper!!

Kenny Mah said...

So this is what the YTF + coloured sticks teaser led to? But what happened to the coloured sticks? :P

Seriously though, bro, there is no right or wrong decisions in life, just the decisions you make. So whatever you decide to do, it's the one you "should" take because it will lead you to the next stage in life, be it easier or more challenging.

But it is a step forward. :)

Big Boys Oven said...

Did I see stuffed brinjal....... oh so lovely so delicious. Life is just like that, have patient is the right formula... life is always full of hurdles... you need to be slowly and steady to take the life of hurdles! :)

SuLee said...

yea man, i grew up stuffin those fish and pork paste into the diff vege, we had two choices coz we had alot of indian customers who doesnt eat pork....

honestly i think those my aunt made were the best YTF i ever tried! but she stopped doing it coz she is now own a kopitiam and served everything, and YTF is just too much work and low demand.

gosh i think im gonna make that this weekend! i miss the taste of it..

sc said...

take it easy dude..sometimes, things just dont turn out the way we wanted it to be. and comparing it to another person only makes matters worst, and to us; more resentful and bitter. as long as you know you work smart and hard, you'll get your rewards sooner or later. good olde karma will work it's wonders..

ling239 said...

let us know what is your decision...
whatever that maybe u will have our support ~ ^_^

teckiee said...

..sometimes we just have to replace the WTF in life with YTF and BKT and KFC. I wish you well for your next step.

zewt said...

so he tot u wanna take leave huh? isnt that an indication already that he wasnt really interested in talking about u-know-what?

the reason he gave was lame la... the usual u-will-make-it-in-the-next-round was picked directly from the textbook.

my friend... these are things you mst learn about big 4 firms...

Imbi & Itchy said...

Hey joe,

Just a very simple comment. This is the real world out there that books did not tell us and unfortunately, hardwork and doing your work right does not guarantee a promotion or recognition when the envinronment is competitive. There are some unwritten rules and games that people play, how they "brush up" to get promoted, playing politics etc ... and these are the extra skills that can bring corporate slaves to the next level.

If throwing in the towels and not regretting is acceptable to you, all of us are giving you our best wishes .. otherwise, it is sometimes better to hang on there till something good comes along otherwise you will feel like a total failure if a good job does not come around in few months down the road or worst, the good job is not as good as it seems.

And Joe, you have to un-detach your emotions (anger, hurt etc) when it comes to work matter.

Wishing you all the best.

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

nic: i guess so..everything is new to me..and yes, the ytf so so only..

beachlover: glad you like the pic..if only people want to pay for it..haha

kennymah: now its whether i should take a step left or right..sigh..

bbo: with my weight, i should be slow and steady isnt..haha..

sulee: send me some! haha the recipe would be good also kekeke..

sc: yeap, good old karma..just dunno when it works..

ling239: well keep u guys updated in whatever happens..

teckiee: i have virtually been drowning myself with food now..

zewt: i know all that crap d..but what can i say? should i suck it up or leave?..

lianne: thanks, its tryin to think with an open mind, so till then, i guess i will be staying put until the right thing comes along..

daphne said...

it's like what they say "it's a dog eat dog world". Perhaps it is time to move on to another job experience. =)

Xiu Long Bao said...

Life is about choices. When i can't make up my mind, i'd like to have all.

Bernsy said...

Hey joe,

I am not sure how big corporate companies does it, but should you be prepared to stay and fight for your promotion, I believe more steps to "polish em balls" should be taken to ensure that promotion.

The senior say only, and in the real world, talk is often cheap. You can't hold a grudge against your senior in 6 months time should you find that you are not on the promotion list (but I hope you do get promoted).

Its really your call, quit and make it big somewhere, but then you never know also right. I wish you make that informed decision, as well as a good educated guess for your next move.

Good luck.

tigerfish said...

promotion also can link to yong tau foo? It's quite stressful to eat yong tau foo like that. Hmmm....

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

daphne: indeed very hungry dogs out there..

xlb: if only it was so easy to have it all..

bernsy: yeah even if my senior is a partner eh?..thanks for the wishes..

tigerfish: unique hor?

tempinis said...

hang in there joe. I was once nearly fired by a former boss - but in the end I worked really hard and impressed him. We learn through all bad experiences. Hope you get promoted soon.

Cynthia said...

I find it ironic that i think that this matter is such a big deal but others think otherwise. - it is not ironic and neither are you making too big a deal of this. This is about your life and your self worth in the world of work and you are entitled to your feelings. Go with your gut instinct.

New Kid on the Blog said...

Once decision is made, just have faith in it... and be responsible for what you've decided. That's life!

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

tempini: well lets hope so..

cynthia: thats true..very true..

new kid: definitely..responsibility and ownership r two things i learnt well