Ownership and dissatisfaction are just two of the topics i thought i want to procrastinate about instead of reviewing about food. After all, i do not release stress on my food and definitely do not want to portray some delicious food as food from hell. So why am i so dissatisfied about ownership?
I guess this must be one of the days when the male species decides to have mood swings without using female's most infamous reason; menstruation or period. To be honest, i havent got a single clue why i suddenly feel so aimless, stoned and unhappy.
Lets start off with the most commonly used word by my partner, Ownership. From day one, we have been brainwashed to take more ownership of the jobs we do, so despite the fact that our work has been cleared by the managers, we as the small little fries of the ladder have to go through and make sure no mistakes are spared. We are encouraged to act as peers to the managers but when it comes down to the dirty work that is..Just recently, a set of slides were done by my manager as i was away on another job, the deadline was extremely tight and i had bearly half an hour to had a go at correcting what seemed to be alot of grammer errors at first but thinking to myself, yeah i get the point and its clear enough. Embarassingly, my partner came back from the presentation and my manager ask me to clear the slides again with him before sending out to the client. Hold and behold as i went through each slide, he lectured me and asked if he could murder me..the mistakes were clear and i couldnt say a word, if i said she did it, i get the ownership issue, if i said i did it, im screwed because it was of poor quality nevermind the fact that he thinks all australian educated graduates doesnt speak english..Why put such a small fry in a dilemma?
Ownership it is, which brings me to yesterday.. I ordered a cake from Just Heavenly and the cake didnt show up after being half an hour late. It seems there was some mix up and lots of apologies were given. I guess Nigel must have mastered the definition of ownership as he decided that since it was their fault, the cake was given free to us.. It definitely impressed all my friends with the good business etiquette he possessed.. Happy belated birthday to him and my friend, Ruben..
Thought i at least have a picture as a rest from reading me procrastinate..
Second issue is again to do with my mood swings.. I am somehow disorientated and disheartened by work, somehow i realised more and more that this just might not be the dream job for me. Everday i dread going to work, even if theres work for me. I feel that in the 1.5 years i have worked in the department, i have not absorbed any knowledge that will be valuable to me, its as if i just slept my years away in a very long dream. The greener pastures down south suddenly seem so pleasing and i can already hear them calling me now..Could it be job dissatisfaction? Well i reckon its just the bonus and increment fever.. The results will be out 29 July and after bumming for a year with dog's pay, i will know how much i truly deserve.. Lets hope that its enough for a Canon EOS 400D..Fingers crossed..