A year ago, i was a small baby in the working force. I was bearly a few months old and eager like a small child asking for sweets, learning what was a one of the most interesting tax and interpreting it with the managers and the directors and showing off my potential.. then the big drop came, GST was postponed and life turned downhill.. yet i stayed on and learned what was then the most grey area tax and life began to be boring.. the team then dwindled in size but yet i stayed of course..
so what about expectations? The minimum requirements to get promoted is a reasonable review from your managers and to work for a period of 1.5 years.. So what about my expectations? I expected more support from the managers, despite my rally to get good grades, i was facing people that stuck to the book of scores, and gave you a crap score if you did something so bad once, but finally agree with you that you deserve a decent score, if i didnt give them trouble.. I was only a month or two away from the 1.5 years..
So if one was to manage their expectations properly, last Thursday should not have been a problem for me, the promotion list was released. But yet the greedy part of my heart and brain said, hey you never know, miracles and surprises happen all the time.. Maybe you might be on the list perhaps? So after a long day at a client office, sneezing away in a room full of dusty files, i switched on the computer and scrolled down the list..and i didnt see my name.. But so what? if i manage my expectations, i would have been happy for the names on there and treat life as normal.. But i wasnt.. I guess i didnt manage my expectations at all.. I was greedy into taking the next step of the ladder.. I didnt want to be at the bottom of the ladder..
Then i came to know my assistant manager also didnt make it, despite her many years and with a strong technical background, because why? her scores didnt make it.. which was ridiculous.. many know that the scoring system is a way for promotion, with the support of the seniors, its really up to them whether they want to promote you.. Its no point arguing over the directors table, if your score didnt make the band.. Sigh, then i heard some more thunder, for another staff that was meant to be promoted, the order was released internally for the managers to give him the "reasonable score" and no otherwise..
At the end of the day, i guess i have to manage my expectations properly, instead of looking at your peers getting promoted and wished you were on the same page as them, some times i guess its good to just step out of the circle and wish them all the best and fingers crossed till the next promotion period in December, if i am there that is..
On the bright side, bonus and increment is bearly a month away, infact July 28th is the day.. I still remember last year, we were given a paltry sum of RM900, because we just joined but we were happy as we didnt have any expectations.. i guess this time around, i better manage it properly, if not my dreams for the DSLR and my golf set can go swimming down the Klang River for all i care..
Ok, i think i feel better, its been eons since i procrastinated on my blog.. It feels kind of good actually.. Well.. for those readers who have managed to read until the last sentence.. Have you ever failed to manage your expectations? How did you feel after that? Did you fare better the next time around?..
Happy weekend people.. i have been abit slow with the reviews and i guess it should all be coming back very soon..