I think its been ages ever since i procrastinated online..you see it requires some sort of thinking and very often i go out of flow..because i dont give a shit about structure and i want to type what i want to type..and when i often go back and read the entry after i published it..its kinda crap if i was a reader reading on some gibberish of this so called normal Joe in life..which brings me to the topic that was prompted some time ago..do you blog for yourself? or do you blog for the sake of others? I mean the very first day of blogging, you didnt expect people to know the website of your blog rite? yes maybe you had an evil scheme to attract lots of people..but you often blog for yourself..ok? It seemed my procrastination entries never really tickled people's fancy..so yes its been some time..but now i am back..and yes..i dont give a shit what you want to read..ahah i give a shit what i want to write..but please faithful readers..i know all your blogs are censored for good English and language used..but just bare with mine..as an international student and an overseas student, i dont speak with a slang nor behave as if my english is the best..so get a life if you decide to question where i got my English ok?
Right now, i am in a kind of dont give a fuck mood, my paper is on Tuesday..and i seriously seriously cant bear to read my notes..eventhough it gives me a sense of familiarity because i keep reading the same sentence..but i got no idea what it is about..sort of a deja vu feeling when something happened at the split second and you get that feeling that you experienced that when you were dreaming..yes how i wish i was driving a Ferrari now speeding at 200km/hr thrashing some wannabe proton wiras..but thats just purely a dream i suppose..So what do i want to ramble about? Exams..yes..exams..the word that makes you tremble and sweat through your palms..but what i really want to talk about is about "expectations"..i still remember my uni days when you study and aim to score a distinction at least..or an "A" if you are UK educated..but now..is it me but i keep telling myself..50 is enough..i think you did enough to get a 50..sigh lets do the exam and get it over with..it strikes me..wtf.. is happening to me? what happened to my "kiasuness"..
Secondly..actually want to end of the entry d..haha tired of even rambling..is this..
You know..this stupid complex had hell alot of news..just found out..which shows i can bearly be fucked to read the newspaper until yesterday..or today..found out the ceiling fell? and cracks like that is everywhere..oh yes..picture courtesy of NST online..i find it disgusting..lets face it..corruption and pocketing money in your own pockets is evident..since way back..and knowing that fact that the taxes i pay goes there is already upsetting..but never have i seen such outrageous things happen..i mean yes those days you know there charge full price and give you half..but i dont see buildings collapsing..but what in the world is happening??? 100 plus million dumped in and you get this rubbish in bearly months? I honestly think this is getting too far..and not to be helped with our sickening taxi services that was just reported by our very rich middle east tourists.. i fail to see how can Malaysia develop in a land of greed?..
Yes i dont have any proof that this is happening..and yes..but all i can say is i have a pair of eyes..and i can see..actually make that 2 pair of eyes..i got glasses to see as well..i sincerely hope that this kind of rubbish cleans up..if not 2050 we still be aiming to be a bloody developed country..